Last night I was drenched in sweat and the pain was racing through my body. Now it's all gone as if it never happened. I felt like a 17-year-old kid again. My mother was right. She said I would get better. But, she isn't she speaking to me and all she does is cry. I've never seen her so sad. You would think she'd be happy. She's always happy when she's right. Why can't I hold her---hug her? I want to tell her the same thing she told me, it'll get better. Whatever she's feeling, it'll get better. But it's like my words are falling on deaf ears. She can't see me, touch me, or hear me. What does all this mean?