I know how it feels to want something so badly you can taste it. You're willing to do the work, get your hands dirty. But, it won't hurt to take time off to smell the roses. Do the things that make you smile. It doesn't matter if it's big or small.
One day while you're working, stop and look around. Are you alone? Is your family moving along without you, as if you're a ghost? You're there. But, are you really there? Your body is with them. The entire world is still moving on without you. Be present and find a balance. Life goes on. Every second counts. Never lose sight of that.
Good luck on your journey, love yourself, and the beautiful people around you.